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Hey there. I've been trying to do one entry in ages but my lazy juice keeps on spurting out. Well maybe it's just me that has a problem with typing. It's way too boring.

So, Christmas arrived. It used to be my favorite part of the year when I was little, but now that I'm older, it's nothing but an ordinary day with extra delicious foods. I have to admit, I miss being a kid. But hey, it's always gonna be part of life wherein you change your perspective in terms of any subject matter. We grow up and learn harder every second. (WOW DID THAT MADE SENSE?!?)

Anyways, as I was logging in here, a thought suddenly popped in randomly. What if I delete this account and start a new one? Seriously, my entries are filled with rants. Unfavorable ones. Sucks big time. I gotta start being a little positive on everything, including my not-so-nice social network accounts. That also includes my Twitter account which I truly love with my whole heart. I'm also thinking about deleting my tumblr for good because it's not making sense to me most of the time. But since I am a huge fan of photographs, I might not do so. But I'm sort of serious with this blog. My BG is so crappy. Eeeek.

I have no idea how to end this one, so I guess it's tata for now.

Your free as a bird gal that is planning to delete this account,

Christine B. Lastimosa

a kiss with a fist is better than none

Sunday bloody Sunday. I was staring at the monitor for quite long now, so I figured it would be nice if I do a little blogging. Well, let's make that little a long one. I haven't updated since.......I don't even remember. So, let's get it on.

Things haven't changed much for the past few months. My hair is a little longer now, and I am so freaking delighted about it. It's just that some days I've been acting a little off. The reason behind my mood swings is mostly about school. 3rd year is not that fun at all. And the lessons are getting harder and harder every minute. I know that this was supposed to be my excelling year, but I can't put much effort to it than I did before. Whyisthissofreakinghard. Anyways, I just got news from V saying that she saw K at paseo last last week. Too bad she didn't even bother to say a simple "Hi" to my V. Oh and yeah some of my batch mates were there also. DEDMA TO THE MAXX. K, I know that you're going through a lot. You don't need to tell us right now what your problem is, but if you want to keep things that way and pretend that you have no idea who we are, then I'm totally cool with it. I AM SO DISAPPOINTED IN YOU. I never thought you'd end up doing this to us. We love you and you know that. Maybe my mom was right, I'm just wasting my time thinking if you'd come and talk to us. Those silly dreams of you in it is just something I regret having.

Furious. I am furious. With my grades, friends, school and all that. I feel like my world is falling apart. But I am still thankful because I am beyond blessed. I'm really sorry if this post is a little distracting, but I just had to release my frustrations. But I think I'm all good right now. I know that life isn't always about candies and cupcakes, you also have to go through hell. And I do believe that things happen for a reason, although I have no idea if it is a good one. Maybe I'll figure it out in the near future.

Woman

Today was just another ordinary day. Well, that's just what I thought. October 18, 2010 is bizarre, but in a good way of course. Things are not really good between us third year students, so we had to fix ourselves a little by an open forum. I'm not really a big fan of this type of things, although I want to be part of it because I want to study each and everyone's behavior. I want to be a psychologist, but the problem with me is I'm not good with conversing with someone I don't really know. I kept quiet for the whole 3 hours, decided that I should just listen. There were some who cried (which I find disturbing in a way because they make me tear up too), trying to explain why they're acting in an unusual way. After hearing them out, I realized how these girls can incredibly cover up what's really inside them, trying to go on like nothing's wrong. This made me realize how sad some of them can be. I admit, I can be a little immature about these issues for some time. I wished I could have shared some thing, but I'm not ready yet. I felt like the batch needs to focus on them first, because I'm not really in a bad shape right now. There was this girl who shared about her past with her best friend whom she truly cared about but betrayed her. I can see that up to now, her past seems like hunting her because she developed trust issues. This made tear up a little, felt sorry for the damage her ex best friend has done. There were lots of girls who contributed, letting us know that we're here for each other.

I love that we got to do this, and is hoping that I can share something the next time. I'm not really problematic, but I think it would be nice if I try to talk to some of them, maybe try to help as much as I can. I know that most youths these days are being put into this kind of situation due to family problems. We always need to reach out to the people who are in need, tell them that we always have to conquer every problem that comes.

I want to share a song by the late John Lennon which expresses his love and respect for every woman living in this world (actually i think he dedicated this to his wife yoko ono). Oh well, I'm a big fan of the oldies and I just feel like there's a need to share this song to you guys. Don't worry, you don't really need to listen to it, since I know that this stuff can be pretty lame for you. :)

Link for the video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5CLGtgovIqc&ob=av2e

Woman

By: John Lennon

Woman I can hardly express,

My mixed emotion at my thoughtlessness,

After all I'm forever in your debt,

And woman I will try express,

My inner feelings and thankfullness,

For showing me the meaning of success

Woman I know you understand

The little child inside the man,

Please remember my life is in your hands,

And woman hold me close to your heart,

However, distant don't keep us apart,

After all it is written in the stars,

I'm not being sexist here, but I think this entry goes for everyone involved. Let's take care of each other and reach out to the people in need. This is why God created us, to help each other. I learned a lot this day, and I' pretty sure I'll be remembering this day for the rest of my life. :)

Always, X.

quater 2nd. second quarter. either way, u still suck.

2nd quarter defines the real me, and that is being a full time procrastinator. It's been my thing ever since I was little, and I don't think it's possible to develop it the other way around since I find it very healthy for me. But really, I LOVE TO PROCRASTINATE.

I know that any time soon, I'll be on college and I have to be extra responsible in everything and all that blah blahs. I honestly think that my brain is not fully trained for those serious stuff that I know I'll find very challenging, because up to now I feel like all of this is a dream. My brothers keep telling me that college is different from high school and that I should be as hardworking as I never was before. This just scares me. And every time they ask me about what course I will be taking, my mind is not yet set for anything. But of course I got a lot of choices to choose from and already picked my top 5. But still, I feel like I'm already living in hell in high school already. AND COLLEGE WOULD BE LIKE WHAT, TWICE THIS?!? OR MORE THAT?!? I am paranoid man.

Okay so let's get to the point, 2nd quarter for me has always been my downfall. This is where I just don't take things critically, always relaxed on a anything. So exams were given last week, and guess what? I think I'll be failing a lot, especially the three-try subjects (namely Chemistry, Trigonometry and Geometry).

Chemistry's one tough subject, and I just don't why it's made to crash our junior year. I thought the whole thing will be on computations, but instead atoms got in the way. I was like, "Oh crap, we didn't even focused on this one!". We discussed it for ONE DAY only, yet it turns out to be the whole coverage of our test. Who wouldn't be depressed about that?

I honestly think that this subject is the hindrance of my high school life, and I need to put much attention to it.

The technical subjects were hard too, especially Drafting. I'm not good with drawing, visualizing and all that crap, which is why I decided that if I'll be choosing a course, it won't include drawing figures and cubes and all that %^&*.

This. Is. Why. I. Hate. 2nd. Quarter.

One thing I learned is that I need to change. I know that there's so much in me that I can show and I am 100% sure that I can put more effort in everything. I mean what's the use of this if all I do is keep complaining instead of moving? Come on guys, we are capable of doing anything as long as we believe in ourselves.

That ends this new post. Hey, don't worry. There'll be lots more :)

I'll be flooding your dashboard! (Nah, I can't do that. Only Denise and Teh Mitchie can. It takes years, intelligence, courage and love for computer to do that. Haha love yew both)

With love, X.

so far so great?

hey there. it's friday morning and i should be sleeping by this time. but no, i got used to waking up early. no classes today (YAY!) and i'm freaking happy about it. so here's the deal, i'll update something then you're gonna have to scroll down and never read it again, okay? (LOLJK)

so here it goes, 2nd quarter is on its way to to the finish line as we are to take the exams next next week (NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) which means I have no time to spend some quality time with my boyfriend, tumblr.

just so you know, tumblr makes me effin happy. i super love how i can simply reblog and like every post i find really adorable.

but i'm not all happy right now. i'm effing depressed and paranoid like s#*@.

i don't know why, but the more i get involved, the less it makes me happy. and that's really crappy for me, now that i'm in the state of being less me. it sucks big time.

good thing i got my girls around, especially my J. she's always there to help, and her presence is something i can't live without.

but anyways, i can't always talk about this kind of stuff, since i'm really a bubbly, happy go lucky person.

so yeah, i got u updated. byeeee

Oh Darling

Oh hi there :) There's nothing much to do around here so I figured to do blogging instead. Isn't ironic that I'm a type of person who hates typing so much and yet manages to fit myself into the cyber world. WEIRD. Anyways I'm here because I feel sad for this account since I don't use it too much. I feel like it hates me, which is why it doesn't want to be used frequently. So it's september 16 today [YAY!]. It's KCHAMJDV's 11 month and Nick Jonas' 18th birthday! [another YAY!] You know very well that I had a crush on that JoBro for a long time now. I may not be a fan of their music, but his personality is just irresistible. It's comparable to heaven. The same with Justin Bieber. But I guess I'm liking the music and his crazy dance moves. And just so you know, both guys can play drums <3......(wow>

1 month to go and KCHAMJDV is 1 year. I don't know if I should be happy or what, since the K is missing. I don't even know if we should celebrate for October since we're not officially complete. One is missing. Ever since I heard that she's gone, I keep dreaming about her. Mostly they turned out to be nightmares, and some were just filled with tears. I have no idea if she misses us or what, but the truth is that I know and she knows that we badly need to see each other. All of us. Right now I just feel like there's a missing piece in a jigsaw puzzle, a piece that cannot be replaced forever. I MISS YEW K, and I know that you miss us too. I love you best bud :(

September is a month for those who hates to be on the outdoors like me. New shows coming up and I found a new site that will make every teenage girls out there, TUMBLR. My friend recommended it to me, since I'm getting a little bored with twitter already. It's the new black. I so love it. You can just reblog whenever you want to. Like whatever you want to. It's just a click away. Speaking of which, here's my account! --> http://xtinewouldbepissed.tumblr.com/

Feel free to follow me (LOLZ).

This entry seemed a little lighter for me, since I usually type in deep thoughts about what I can observe. Ya like? Naw. 5 followers and I still stink.

With Love,

X.

little J.

a pic of me and J, way back when we were in grade6. editing fail.

August 14 is one special day. It's the anniversary of me and my best friend's friendship! 3 years of friendship, to be exact.

We go way back, when we were young. I met her at school when we were in third grade. I noticed her because my classmate told me we look alike. At first, I was a bit hesitant because I didn't see any resemblance between us. But as we grow up, I realized that she looks just like me. Only she's a lot gorgeous than me, to be honest. We got really close when we were in the 6th grade. I got to know her better, who she really is and what she is capable of doing. We had a really good relationship. She's been there for me, always willing to help me. And that's just what is really great about her.

We got into a fight when we were in high school. It's because of a guy. Well, I wasn't jealous on them, I guess I thought that she deserves a lot better. I know the guy and I'm pretty sure he's not the one that will keep my best friend in a good position. So there we are, not talking for a month. Not a word. Nada. But we made up, thanks to our adviser who truly cares about us.

I was totally cool about him and her hanging out because I know that will make J happy. But after a few months, my prediction was right. The dude's a JERK.

We certainly been through a lot, but I guess that's part of everything. The ups and downs. And I am so proud that we're still keeping our friendship, after all the things that happened. We still do the same thing, we help each other. Because that's just what friends are for, providing loving service (wow this is so clve). Jonina Marie J. Tengco is not just my friend, she's my sister. I love yew little J!