Woman

Today was just another ordinary day. Well, that's just what I thought. October 18, 2010 is bizarre, but in a good way of course. Things are not really good between us third year students, so we had to fix ourselves a little by an open forum. I'm not really a big fan of this type of things, although I want to be part of it because I want to study each and everyone's behavior. I want to be a psychologist, but the problem with me is I'm not good with conversing with someone I don't really know. I kept quiet for the whole 3 hours, decided that I should just listen. There were some who cried (which I find disturbing in a way because they make me tear up too), trying to explain why they're acting in an unusual way. After hearing them out, I realized how these girls can incredibly cover up what's really inside them, trying to go on like nothing's wrong. This made me realize how sad some of them can be. I admit, I can be a little immature about these issues for some time. I wished I could have shared some thing, but I'm not ready yet. I felt like the batch needs to focus on them first, because I'm not really in a bad shape right now. There was this girl who shared about her past with her best friend whom she truly cared about but betrayed her. I can see that up to now, her past seems like hunting her because she developed trust issues. This made tear up a little, felt sorry for the damage her ex best friend has done. There were lots of girls who contributed, letting us know that we're here for each other.

I love that we got to do this, and is hoping that I can share something the next time. I'm not really problematic, but I think it would be nice if I try to talk to some of them, maybe try to help as much as I can. I know that most youths these days are being put into this kind of situation due to family problems. We always need to reach out to the people who are in need, tell them that we always have to conquer every problem that comes.

I want to share a song by the late John Lennon which expresses his love and respect for every woman living in this world (actually i think he dedicated this to his wife yoko ono). Oh well, I'm a big fan of the oldies and I just feel like there's a need to share this song to you guys. Don't worry, you don't really need to listen to it, since I know that this stuff can be pretty lame for you. :)

Link for the video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5CLGtgovIqc&ob=av2e

Woman

By: John Lennon

Woman I can hardly express,

My mixed emotion at my thoughtlessness,

After all I'm forever in your debt,

And woman I will try express,

My inner feelings and thankfullness,

For showing me the meaning of success

Woman I know you understand

The little child inside the man,

Please remember my life is in your hands,

And woman hold me close to your heart,

However, distant don't keep us apart,

After all it is written in the stars,

I'm not being sexist here, but I think this entry goes for everyone involved. Let's take care of each other and reach out to the people in need. This is why God created us, to help each other. I learned a lot this day, and I' pretty sure I'll be remembering this day for the rest of my life. :)

Always, X.

quater 2nd. second quarter. either way, u still suck.

2nd quarter defines the real me, and that is being a full time procrastinator. It's been my thing ever since I was little, and I don't think it's possible to develop it the other way around since I find it very healthy for me. But really, I LOVE TO PROCRASTINATE.

I know that any time soon, I'll be on college and I have to be extra responsible in everything and all that blah blahs. I honestly think that my brain is not fully trained for those serious stuff that I know I'll find very challenging, because up to now I feel like all of this is a dream. My brothers keep telling me that college is different from high school and that I should be as hardworking as I never was before. This just scares me. And every time they ask me about what course I will be taking, my mind is not yet set for anything. But of course I got a lot of choices to choose from and already picked my top 5. But still, I feel like I'm already living in hell in high school already. AND COLLEGE WOULD BE LIKE WHAT, TWICE THIS?!? OR MORE THAT?!? I am paranoid man.

Okay so let's get to the point, 2nd quarter for me has always been my downfall. This is where I just don't take things critically, always relaxed on a anything. So exams were given last week, and guess what? I think I'll be failing a lot, especially the three-try subjects (namely Chemistry, Trigonometry and Geometry).

Chemistry's one tough subject, and I just don't why it's made to crash our junior year. I thought the whole thing will be on computations, but instead atoms got in the way. I was like, "Oh crap, we didn't even focused on this one!". We discussed it for ONE DAY only, yet it turns out to be the whole coverage of our test. Who wouldn't be depressed about that?

I honestly think that this subject is the hindrance of my high school life, and I need to put much attention to it.

The technical subjects were hard too, especially Drafting. I'm not good with drawing, visualizing and all that crap, which is why I decided that if I'll be choosing a course, it won't include drawing figures and cubes and all that %^&*.

This. Is. Why. I. Hate. 2nd. Quarter.

One thing I learned is that I need to change. I know that there's so much in me that I can show and I am 100% sure that I can put more effort in everything. I mean what's the use of this if all I do is keep complaining instead of moving? Come on guys, we are capable of doing anything as long as we believe in ourselves.

That ends this new post. Hey, don't worry. There'll be lots more :)

I'll be flooding your dashboard! (Nah, I can't do that. Only Denise and Teh Mitchie can. It takes years, intelligence, courage and love for computer to do that. Haha love yew both)

With love, X.